...what happened to inner calm was he decided to leave the box and stretch out of confinement. It was like leaving a thought form prison that works to bind the mind through twisted logic, fear drive ideas, and promises held out like a rotting carrot by a rotten, maniacal god figure.
Once outside the prison, I could get my bearings and finally see things for what they really are.
The difference between giving up Santa Clause and the biblical god character was that I actually respected Santa Clause. The other jerk was a psychopath. Good think it is fiction or we'd be screwed. ;-)
That's what "happened" to innercalm. He morphed out of inner turmoil and the resonance with a tumultuous belief system.
The bonus?
Now there are no middle men in my life. I can manifest and create direct without any lag.