i am so glad i am not alone in feeling isolated and bieng a hermit. i had tmau my whole life. i never had a boyfriend or even been on a date or kissed a guy. at 34 this is embarrising! i dont go to family reunions because all they asked is your not married yet or have a man. i come from a mexican american family that is big family.i feel like the freak of the family. all my cousins are married now. i avoid men. they flirt i dont know what to do and i feel like an idiot! i have no social life and no friends. this is a lonely life. i wish i had just one friend who had tmau. then we could hang out and not judge each other but have support.i feel as though i cant be myself around people and i dont trust anyone. i have a funny sence of humor and if i could i would be an outgoing person i cannot be my true self. at times i have to cry and fell realy angry and let it out. i am raissing my 2 nephew and 1 niece and my little nephew asked why i dont have a boyfriend! i just wanted to cry and i quickly changed the subject! he is sweet:} i live in california.
my mom is my best friend i have her and my sis but she has a life. i love my mom but i would be nice to have someone my own age as a friend.