Don't give up

Please don't give up.  Whether you believe in God or the chances of fate, neither of them has kept you alive only for you to willfully end your life.  There is always hope.  Unless you give up and end your life that is.  I know that your suffering and the failure of untold doctors and alternative people must make it so very hard to belief in any hope, and I don't pretend to walk in your shoes.  But the only time there is no hope is when you are dead.  Go check yourself in the hospital at least and challenge them to help you find an answer to save your life. Do anything but give up!