ooohhhh..... I don't know what to say. I'm sorry. And thank you for the kind words:)
That book looks good- I just put it in my cart at Amazon.
As far as trusting people- I find that my intuition is highly- honed and right- on. So there's a gift that I received from that early breach of trust. How-ev-er. I find that I put people on my own sort of internal "probation", it can last forever, to actually grant that trust which my intuition has told me is deserved. So, I second guess myself instead of just being able to open up.