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Was I supposed to meet this person or am I reading too much into it?
I'm female and single. I've always stayed single as I'm not into the whole "relationship" thing. I guess I enjoy independence too much. I just want it out there that I'm not someone who ever tries to pick up men.
About a month ago, I had probably one of the worst days of my life and these events led me to ending up in an area I normally wouldn't have been in otherwise.
I ended up sitting next to some random person. I hardly noticed them. Then like 20 minutes later, we turned around at the same time because of a noise and smiled/scoffed when we made eye contact. He was surprised to see me there and said "How long have you been sitting there" and we just smiled and laughed because of the way it happened it was just funny. We ended up talking, laughed some more... we just instantly CLICKED. It was just a mutual connection.
Then come to find out, he was there for similar reasons as me. He had a lot of shit going on that he wanted to get away from too. It was different and similar in ways. We ended up going off together, hanging out and spent over 24 hours together just hanging out and going to different places.
Since then, things have been weird and on and off. I haven't really talked to the guy in over a week now. I've tried.. he's the one being weird and distant. I can only contact him via phone and not even text messages and when I call he doesn't answer or sometimes answers but just to say he'll call back which he rarely does. He had told me that he was "Bipolar" and apparently has alcohol/drug issues that are pretty obvious and he's in denial of. It's obvious but I'm keeping my mouth shut on that observation. So taking that into consideration and all the shit he has going on in his life, I don't believe he's sick of me or avoiding me.. I just don't feel that I'm his problem because he seems to like me way too much when we are together. I believe he was sincere when he said that he never had that much fun with a woman just hanging out and doing what we did... But then he disappears for days or a week or so meaning I can't get a hold of him. I know for a fact he was single when I met him so bipolar/alcohol/drugs are the only thing I can think of to make this so confusing. It's not me..it's him!
Anyway, besides the current drama and lack of communication which could possibly be explained by the bipolar and drug issues..
Could I have been meant to MEET this guy for more reasons than just a few weeks of fun/fling? Things happen for a reason right? Like I said, I'm not someone who ever goes out to meet new people so...
Or am I simply falling for his "good side" qualities that his exes probably fell for too? I've seen the good side and I can see the bad too but the bad just wasn't bad enough to scare me off.