I keep on getting the feeling that I need to be ready to
phase out of the 3D reality and become a lighter version
of myself. I start getting lighter and more lucid
and then I feel a longing to come back to finish things
I started... I guess my biggest concern that keeps me coming
back are projects I started that I have not completed... and
I just don't want to leave those I love in a belligerent
world if I could possibly make more of a difference in the
physical world than in the spirit. I see the masses in a trance
with our children consumed by violent video games, movies and music...
and I am foolish enough to believe by addressing that problem,
I can make a difference... But when I do it seems that people want
their violent fantasies of wars, cops, murder mysteries and
I can't even stop my 5 year old from believing that wonder dog going
after villains is playing into a culture of violence that must
stop... The masses need their violence to make them feel 3D.
I am still feeling pulled into dream like waking states of consciousness and
pulled back by my body who does not want to be abandoned. My perception is that
my body will be out of control if I just abandon it so my soul and body have
agreed to stay together until the end. I am not just going to ditch my physical
responsibilities to others but I do fear my soul will attempt to arrange
potential calamities. I can hear my soul chattering in the background saying
that only if no other persons are injured in the process... and my body is
saying...forget it... I only have one life and I am staying in this as long as I
can be physically productive.
In this waking dream state I feel the earth crying out for healing and it also
calls me back... Things become more centered and then I can become engaged in
the working world...
But I keep getting flash forwards of a better day soon ahead and my soul wants
to get there ahead of my body... It is like a tug of war
and even though my soul wants to rebel, I have decided(at least for this moment)
to continue to work on being more grounded so I will not cut loose a soulless
body on the world... I have some projects I need to do that may mess up my karma
if I do not follow through...
If we are going to ascend, I don't want to leave the rest of the world in such a
violent state but the war I have going on between me and the war lovers is still
a war... I just need to shake that need to correct the masses in their
brainwashed culture of violence and be peaceful. I am still a work in