I think your projecting that onto it. I find many christians project a faux anger onto others so they are vindicated in theirs. Fear and anger seem to walk hand in hand. It's part of the trance that is christianity. See it in the new age communities as well. It's not an exclusive thing.
Imagine a life without all that baggage. I was where you were. My health, potential, freedom, etc have climbed immeasurably since letting all that junk go. Open mindedness is a great place to be.