Alot of what you said is about suffering. Obviously you feel that god wants to make people suffer in life to teach them a lesson. I am sorry but the God/spirit I believe in would not have any of it. If God so loves you why would he want to see you suffer? You would like to think he would stand for us, and shield us from all hatefull, and negative emotions. Does not every parent want the best at all times for their children? Why would god watch the millions of oppressed people on earth and not do anything? Their is evil in this world, and it prowls around like a hungry lion feeding on the weak who in turn hate their fellow man spreading like a cancer. Man does have free will and when they go against God/Spirit...bad things happen.