I'm struggle a lot here with this. I feel like I want to just give up on everything. I'm very depressed and I've been only going to work and staying in the house with all the blinds and curtains closed. I hate that I feel this way. I feel so awful and feel like a freak. I'm trying everything to help myself but I just can't win. Then on top of that. I have to deep with very small minded individuals at work. They'r doing everything they can to make my life a living hell. Right now, I just wish I could disappear. Because now its like I hate myself. I can't stand myself and feel bad inside that indivduals can't stand me around. I still have no answers for why? Why am I going through this no doctor or nobody understands me at all. If anybody out there understands please help me and let me know what works and what doesn't. Thank you for taking the time out to read this. I really do appreciate it.