have you tried Megahydrin? If you look it up on the internet you will find that many people in other BO forums have been using it for their BO and BB symptoms (until you find outwhat the problem is that's causing the BO. It'scalled Mycrohydrin too but you may find more results with the spelling of the megahydrin. They say it's suppose to work but you have to keep saying it. Did you lose your job or did you just quit, some in this forum have been quitting their jobs and not getting fired because if you were fired there is unemployment compensation. I would be careful what I say to people in this forum, the Beano started making me smell funny to so I stopped using it. From what I understand Ms. Blue has kids ( we've talked outside the forum) and I wouldn't want to be an enabler of such conversations. You saying you didn't do it because you are a coward isn't very good, imagine how her kids would feel not having a mother, and no you are not a coward, but giving your reason for not killing yourself is a cowardly. I believe you know your life is worth something. But have you been to the doctor to see about yourself too?