I hear ya Matt! Congrats for being so honest. I'm right up there with you in terms of addiction, minus the pot and cigarettes...unfortunately I am also a coffee junkhead, although I can tolerate at max, less than a cup a day- but even that makes me obviously crazy!
For me the drug of choice is carbs and sugar, and I would give my left arm- or firstborn, whatever would be less painful (!) to get out of the cycle that only leads to postponing the healing process.
Great insight about the family crap too....I just wonder how deep the ties run and how one can claw their way out of the patterns that serve no purpose.
I look forward to hearing what Uny has to say about all of this...I am also interested in knowing what/if any parts of the IP can be done seperately...