Thanks you Everyone, so much, for your support and concern.
I am trying so hard but I am at the point where I need a doctor to believe in me and help me.
I am praying this new one on Thurs is the one. I am losing the ability to help myself, I don't know how much longer I can live alone without help.
If it has to come down to it, I may have to move in with my Father who lives an hour away from me. I dont want to do that as he has cancer and is under treatment for it but he told me that he will help me if I cant help myself.
Too tired to keep typing but that you all so much for your suppot and concern, it means so much to me that you all care.