Re: Life isn't working, it will now.
That's right, 31067, your innerchild/conscience is annoyed at you because you're not being more protective of it/yourself.
It is common that many people are more concerned about those who torment, ridicule, and mock others than they are about the suffering/pain that YOU HAVE EXPERIENCED (not much compassion there, is there?). To make matters worse, we go along with it in a false sense (THE TORMENTER is the guilty party, the victim does nothing to deserve torment) of guilt (trying to be politically correct), but when we make the mistake of doing that, we again get our conscience (inner child) mad at us and the cycle of self-persecution continues (because we become the abuser's accomplice as though we approve of their actions).
My tormenters never needed "forgiveness", what they NEEDED was to STOP (I couldn't care less about their forgiveness, I only cared that they would STOP...neither was it MY forgiveness they needed).
"Forgiveness" is something that is sorely misunderstood.
A person ONLY needs forgiveness if they are FIRST "held in contempt" (if you hold their actions AGAINST THEM). Like I said, I didn't REALLY care about "their" guilt for what had already happened, all I really cared about was that they would STOP.
****It would have been very compassionate for people to NOT expect me to FORGIVE MY TORMENTER (including "Christians").
The most UNCOMPASSIONATE thing other people can do is tell someone to "forgive".
You will understand very well 31067 what I have just said about forgiveness (how uncompassionate others can be), OTHER PEOPLE WON'T be able to TRULY understand what I said because they have never TRULY "suffered". Do you see now?,...because you and I have SUFFERED, we KNOW/understand more than most people (we are "insightful").
"Suffrage" (the understanding about "human nature") is a great lesson of life,...that is the reward of true "character".
Your innerchild will do well in life.