you might consider the ayahuasca. the hopi use mescaline. many cultures use natural substances to enhance the minds eye and create seers.
there are many hallucinogens which you might find helpful. as with everything worthwhile, it requires study and carries some risk. they are a valid and serious option.
what happens is the opening of chakras. you have some kind of blockage and are rightfully concerned about it, imho.
drugs are like a crash course. meditation, energy healing, sound, sight... there are many roads to get there.
instead of a last resort, i would ask the lord first. your father in heaven knows your needs.