Oh, don't be disheartened goldenberry, the beginning is usually the most arduous. It will soon be behind you! You are using your time so productively, especially with concerns upon refeeding. This may be the bump in the road, and it seems to be a major bump! Don't be deterred, focus on the road ahead, you are laying the foundation for improved health. That is priceless, and may prove to be well worth striving. Warm regards.