You should read "The Shack", by William Paul Young. It's like an 8 hour roller coaster ride through all your deepest emotions.
Words can't do it justice, so I won't attempt to explain. The author is equally as incredible. You need to understand the author to really appreciate the book.
My preferred video of the author is here, but there are several similar. I like to listen to any new ones, since he always reveals something new. What I always find funny is he has a story to tell, it is always consistent, but the audience always laugh inappropriately. For example in my fav version he says "where I grew up they didn't wear any clothes" (5 mins 7 secs), but if you see him saying this many times you will realise he is just trying to get the facts across, and I presume he must be a little worn out at the audience laughter. But he always tells his story, passionately.