Hi. I am so sorry to hear about what you are going through. You can and will get better. I did and so have alot
of people on this site.
I tried to post you a very lengthy message that took me almost an hour to write but unfortunately it got erased
when I tried to send it. I don't have time right now to re-write.. If you will post your email address I would love to
correspond with you. I have so many things to tell you that will help. If you are not comfortable I will try to re-write
message when I get some time.