"He has told me before that he had to end a relationship with one of his previous girlfriends because he couldnt give her an cllmax and it upset him. So I fake it. Its not right, I know."
Do you really want a man who thinks that the most important thing he can give you is an cllmax? Something any woman could give herself and makes him quite irrelevant? And to boot he is so weak as to be upset by it? And he is willing to dump you (his ex but you're next) because he couldn't handle his own inability to meet such a meaningless and low expectation from life or simply his role as protector and supporter of his mate? Yet again, proof that sex is never the foundation for a healthy and fulfilling relationship.
"HELP ME PLEASE!"
Tell him the truth, that you don't cllmax and out of your 10 partners.... ok maybe not the 10 partners part.... just tell him that you have never had an cllmax. It'll seperate the winners from the losers in your life, as I hope you think that you are worth more than an cllmax. Plus it'll give him a challenge, something to work towards if you know what I mean.
Methinks though, that if you stopped pleasing yourself your body would readjust to being stimulated the way nature intended - by a male. The same thing happens to males when they lose interest in their wives because they spank the monkey to p 0 r n o g r a p h y. Put that male on a stranded island for 6 months and you probably couldn't pry him away from his wife...