Dying Dying

About three years ago I was driving home from work about dusk. As I was going down Slaughter Mountain (a rather steep stretch of road on the edge of Fayetteville Arkasas) I had the thought I had better be careful or I was going to have an accident. Then the thought came "I hope I won't die like the last time" that was my exact thought. Then I had a "memory" of being in the front seat of an old car, probably from the late forties or early fifties, and I knew I was about to die. I remember the car had a tan interior with wood trim on the dashboard. I apparently had been driving but had been thrown back on the seat and was lying down with my head on the passenger side. I don't remember feeling any pain, but I knew I was terribly injured and was about to die. I do not remember feeling any fear, just a slight sense of regret. The whole process could not have taken more than a few seconds, but the memory is so real and remains quite vivid in its detail. I got home safely with no incident, but the next week a huge buck deer jumped into my car and a few months after that I stopped walking. What happened that evening? Does anyone have any ideas? I really don't believe in past lives, but I can't help but wonder after this experience. How does a person know intellectally that she is about to die?

The main reason I am posting this now is that I have had several episodes of this feeling, lasting only a few seconds,but very real. There have not been any "visions" or "memories" associated with these recent feelings, but they are very real. I don't have anyone I can talk to about this in my day to day life. In fact, I am a little afraid y'all are going to judge me as being very silly or psycotic. With my history I imagine the doctors around here will just try to put me back on antidepessants , and refuse to become their drug induced zombie again. My very conservative church would probably think something was spiritually wrong, I mean some of them think I must be a great sinner to not be healed after all their prayers. I would sure appriciatesome insight that will put my mind at rest. Just for the record, I don't think my health is any better or any worse than usual, although I have been feeling very discouraged and depressed lately. Tweet