Itís funny that you ask am I ď trying,Ē to be free. I must say that I feel that Iím just ďwaitingĒ to be free. Iíve always felt ďheld backĒ by fate, I canít exactly put my finger on what I need to be free of, but I know or feel that Iím being hindered or held back. Itís been this way almost all my life. I never seem to have good luck, Iím always the one who doesnít qualify for something, or the one thatĎs ignored or overlooked, all ways told no. Sometimes itís like Iím invisible. Itís really hard for me to explain. When I sit down to rationalize this, I tell myself these things are nothing, only coincidence, but I feel they are not.