Re: a manipulative heading can read a lot like trolling
Why post the word suicide in the subject line then write a post about how it's not suicide...? Sounds like your argument is with yourself. ( the war within to reflect allthe war outside?) Your post comes across as attention-seeking of the worst sort--
and makes a mockery of this forum. What's ironic is some *have* all but given up -- people who are in great pain, real agony, really suffering, and then, much to their dismay, got better from water fasting, when they intended to die.
Do some reading--do a lot of reading; look up the soil and health library and the writings by the Hygienists. And as someone else said "zip it".(your words) I lose patience with what comes across as indulgence and manipulative posting.
I'm sorry if I'm wrong--but I don't feel like this is a cry for help, nor that you are in any danger really of "giving up". I feel like now's the time to get serious.
No great leap in consciousness has been accomplished without a feeling of just being sick to death with the way one is carrying on...(regardless of how it began)
It's cause to move ahead into the light, actually.
Chiron