Well...the year is off to a running start... feels like I never left.... I am just amazed that none of my kids did something permanent to end their pain. I never thought of myself as strong, especially when i was 12-13..but I survived those hellish years, somehow, so I'm just trying to help these kids make it through. I did have a really pleasant surprise. One of my kids...who was on the expressway to jail, pregnancy, or rehab came by to visit. It has been 2 years and she looked really good. Her skin, demeanor, everything. She just wanted to stop by and say thanks. Seems my message got through, just took a couple of years for her to hear it. So, like you and soul survivor said...you never know when you will see the rewards of your work. I now have 3 who are on the top of my priority list...2 are actively suicidal, one just wants god to be helpful and let her die in her sleep. So, just like last year, I'm filling in as surrogate mommy, daddy, good aunt, uncle, granny and gramps...and the funny/sad part is...I was told that it is good I'm helping these kids, yet I need to do more so their test scores go up. Must make sure that the no child left behind act is really acted upon since nothing else really matters. Gotta love politicians. The title should be "every child left behind:...but who am I....after all...we know that the politicians are the one to judge best.
Sadly, I'm noticing that child abuse seems to be the norm. Child Protective Svcs doesnt even want to get involved unless it is drastic abuse. Kids are knocked around, kicked out of the house for a few days, the just emotionally/verbally abused and it just goes in the category of unfounded abuse report. Poor parenting, yet allowable. Why do I love my job, i look forward to seeing my kids, encouraging them to hang in, being their support when no one else will....I must really be dysfunctional....oh well...but it is nice to get those compliments...makes everything seem worthwhile..