Honey, you have to let her go...you don't own one another, okay? You are a young fella who's having a tough time. Now, start GETTING tough! When you wake up in the morning, be grateful for the sun, rain, wind, whatever - another day, another chance to grow a little more. We're ALL growing, me included, and the day I stop growing will be the day I'm planted for worm food.
You will get through this, I promise. And, no need for apologies - sometimes, it's kinda hard to hear Truth when it's not what we want to hear. :)