You're way too immature to accept this advice, but I'll give it anyway for the fans to read. You mention that you did things because, "...I don't know why.." blah, blah, blah. You're young and immature, that's what they do. You got involved with three-way whatevers, and on and on, and you wonder why your relationships are shallow and full of mistrust? I wouldn't trust you, why should he? And I wouldn't trust him. Until you grow out of this childish "he said, she said" back and forth, your life will be this continual freakshow of events that you'll never have an answer for. Try being normal for a change. Normal is in short supply these days. Normal is good. Do what you say. Be accountable. Choose better guys who share normal sexual and relationship wants and needs. Geez...