nice post... and yeah in alot of ways I agree with ya buddy. Your post is also a great example of the stress and darkness we experience. I have been there, and I feel for ya! Some days you just want to die... its a retarded merry go round of pain and suffering.
I agree with you that the stress of the candida diet can mess a person up... and I feel that the stress itself is worse than actually eating a few so called "bad" things. And then you feel bad for filling your cravings. Wondering if your ever going to get over this b.s. I dont have an answer for ya there, but all you can do is take this day by day and see what actually works for you.
SickofHives makes a good point though, and that the candida diet does take the stress off. The candida diet is a nice option when the candida symptoms get to be too much, but 3-6 day veggie/fruit juice fasts in my experience work 10X better.