Hi SoulfulSurvivor....I was in therapy years ago, dealing with the issues of my own traumas....and until now, I thought I had them under control, I have been dealing wih students/clients for years, and I was able to remain professional, effective. While I empathized, I was able to put the issues in perspective. So this year comes along, and like a bolt out of the blue....I'm affected deeply, and I'm not sure why. It is only with a couple of clients, one in particular. I have no idea why I'm identifying with them, I've done the self analysis, soul searching, etc., and Im at a loss.
But I have noticed many maladaptive emotions in myself, so I am going to be finding a therapist, to see what is causing me to unravel. Yet oddly enough, when I'm with my kids, I am alive, feeling effective, feeling a sense of "im where I belong." It is after, those quiet alone moments where the demons come out to play.
I also noticed that this year, I have not had much support from the administration, even getting the mild threats to keep my eyes open, keep my head down, etc...guess it is better to let the kids be abused that risk an unhappy parent.
thank you for your kind words and support...it really does mean a lot....