So, its about to be springtime, which I love. But besides that, this whole winter and late fall has been pretty horrible. My best friend (XY) got addicted to cocaine, which, if any of you know is an atrocity in itself, not to mention how drastically it affects the people around the user. So, that was one emotional problem I had. He and my other best friend are the two people I love the most friend-wise. So, after XY got sent off to rehab, we were both really upset about it. He wont be back until the middle of summer. Every weekend since we've been smoking so much weed its not even funny. Somehow we thought it would ease the pain of loss, and it did, although this last week, his parents found out and he is now going to be grounded for quite some time. Along with that, this week has been very blase and a little problems spill out at me constantly. Now, as a home school student, I am confined to my home without pot, friends, or happiness. I know that it seems I shouldn't be smoking, but I just want something to do during the days I am left at home, and my parents dont care much that I smoke. But I know that I need to find something more productive to do and find something to bring happiness or at least contentedness back into my life. Suggestions would be much appreciated.