that was Beautiful!!! --and isnt turiya known in sanskrit to be Awareness itself!
it was so uncanny and confirming for me to read what you wrote!!!!! it was so amazingly timely and synchronistic!!!
only a day or two before i read your post i was listening to some old archives of alan watts. i listened to hours of it but the one thing was that he said that struck me most was that he said something like "in this apparent manifested world there cannot exist one thing without its opposite--- that if you have one thing you have to have the other" and i have heard this before--- but this time it went in a whole new way--- and as i heard this deep within me i realized that i couldnt possibly have a "sick brain" unless i had "a healthy brain" (or body or whatever) --- i honestly realized that the two are the same thing and were not against eachother! i knew it was all okay! i knew in that moment that i had nothing to fight anymore? i just got it!--- the subtleness and depth of this realiztion went very deep ---and i cant quite encapsulte it in words---so my words are not actually acurate--- i cant really articulate the shift that occurred. so then you can imagine how SHOCKED i was when i opened up this reply post from you on a health forum!
just wanted to thank you for writing that. you probably werent even sure why you were writing that to me... but it was simply PERFECT TIMING! thanks for following you heart!
and yes-- "ananda" means "bliss" ---the recognition of oneself as THAT and overflowing in the bliss of that recognition. that is what my life is dedicated to.