Only when you feel like a failure can you FEEL "alone". Are you subjecting yourself to the "high society" social standard?... or maybe the "popularity JONSES" standard (the "who's who" of high society)? Of course, technically (OBJECTIVELY), right now, because you are by yourself, you are ALONE, but FEELING loneLY ("loneLY" is a SUBJECTIVE word) is because you have decided to FEEL disappointed IN YOURSELF (you choose to SHAME yourself,...this is NOT NICE). It is small wonder that your conscience is upset with you for doing that.
It is never recognized that our conscience "gets mad" at us and haunts us for doing things like this. We betray ourselves and persecute ourselves for many MADE-UP reasons (that is human nature). Even though the "Jonses" standard and "high society" standard are not YOUR chosen way of life, you subject yourself to those standards anyway, well let me speak on behalf of your conscience...GET OFF YOUR CASE and stop being unjust. Your conscience doesn't like you being unjust to yourself or anyone else.
In this way, we never understand many of the things we decide to FEEL,...we CAN'T because we FEEL an "EFFECT" instead of UNDERSTAND the "CAUSE" (besides, you are never alone if God is in your heart...a LOVE, not a FAITH).
Merry Christmas (don't underestimate His presence).