Re: Sickness, by MH

Things are so dark now that I am all the time trying to focus on the light. It is quite difficult and I am doing everything I can think of to get as healthy as possible and to try my best to learn how to overcome these well founded fears. It seems so overwhelming and anymore it doesn't seem there is anywhere to turn and all is unsafe for all of us including the perpetrators who are so unwise.

Some people are much more able to remain calm in all of this chaos than I am. Constitutionally I have always been extremely sensitive and even at a very very young age I was noticing these things you speak of and not understanding why everyone else seemed to be ok with it all. At 11 years old I would rock my baby brother to sleep every night praying very very hard that he would never have to be sent to a war. ( he never was because they eliminated the draft by then) Even in those days we were learning so many fearful things about punishment and hells (from the religion) and atom bombs and slavery and wars and torture and concentration camps etc., not to mention the rath and insanity of my own family. Is that enough to fear for a 6 year old?

I have to admit I find it all very difficult. My current solution is to gather a group of local meditators together once a week to sit together just to conjure up the light and the kind and loving energy which is the only antidote that I can think of along with dietary change and pursuing a healthy lifestyle where we can experience the beauty and joy of being togehter and with our divine mother in nature.

Something I found that was helpful last night while having trouble sleeping and realizing that I was caught in fear. I needed something easy and simple and I asked for guidance as to some words to repeat. So I found that just repeating the word light over and over again - adding some embellishments like peaceful light - joyful light - loving light after a while this actually had me calmed down and feeling as if I were surrounded by a golden warm light inside and out and I was able to fall asleep.

I know that the worst thing to be now is afraid - I just am one of those who has a hard time casting it out. Tweet