You are one of the few who sees that it is all a big farce.
Nobody wants to work in this sytem because it is designed to serve others, not you - it is very much a "trickle down" system, where the elites get what they want and throw you some scraps.
Even the ones who did make it - like mtndw - as so dissatisfied with it that they stop, even when successfull1!! That says something....
Your repulsion to the 9-5 is fromt he fact that it is now akin to slavery. Youare willing to wrk hard, to learn, and yet there is nothing that appeals to you, because it is all about domination.
You are sensitive enough to feel this. mtndw is not sensitive to very much, as money can insulate a person very well from reality
I see it as soft slavery, they way they dominate, and use that dominations to reduce the choices and then ratchet up the pressure to put in long hours working in streessfull conditions. Why are NO jobs free of stress? - because stress is part of the plan for you.
personally, I enjoy working hard. I climbed mountains, learned music, and developed my physical qualities for health and strength. All those took tremendous work and effort. Yet, it is obvious that I do not have the right stuff to hold a decent job.
Health issues have interfered with that ever since I was hit by a drunk who was going thru a red light. Insurance didn't cover me , so then I am injured permanently without any pension to depend on. That is a classic exapmle of not being an equal for the competitiveness of the work world. Sure, lots of injured people do make successfull lives and careers, but not all, so it is a handicap, without compensation or consideration, no pity.
All that helpos me see the inherant unfairness in the workplace where only mtndw type people do well for some reason. Same effort, same education, and he will allways do better than us. why>? \
Attitude, buying into the system, and being brainwashed might be helpfull to that process.
I'll just keep my freedom of thought and stay poor I guess - is that the major factor?