I am a mother of 4, and after my last one almost 4 years ago I decided to get the mirena. My doctor said it was wonderful and he even was putting one in his wife. I figured hey if he is willing to put it in his wife it must be ok. Now I am realizing it isn't. I am scheduled to get it out next week. I can't wait!! I have always dealt with bouts of depression, but never anything major. i could always get out of it and do what needed to be done. Since I have had this in, it has gotten very bad. I have spent no telling how much money and so has my insurance on trying to figure out what was wrong with me- blood tests, doctor visits, medication, you name it. I have had severe anxiety (which I never had before), achiness in not just my back but also my joints, not being able to sleep at night but not being able to get up in the mornings(sleeping all day) night sweats, body jerks, major stomach bloating and uncomfortableness ( I have always been able to get a flat stomach back after my kids,, now I look and feel 3-4 months pregnant) weight gain- never weighed over 112(except when pregnant) now I stay between 118 and 122(not complaining just wondered what caused it), NO energy, severe mood swings, thoughts that I am losing my mind, suicidal thoughts. I could go on and on. I have honestly thought there was just something wrong with ME- I was just messed up! I have been on so many medications (which have probably also caused some of these side effect)- Ambien, klonopin, pain medicine, 3-4 different anti-depressants! I have wondered so many times if my kids would just be better off without me or if any of this was even worth it. Now I am so relieved to know that it probably isn't me! There may be a light at the end of this dark tunnel. I will know next week I guess. i am just so happy to have found this website, I don't even know what made me go here. I am dreading the periods and worrying about birth control. My husband is just going to have to buck up and get the dreaded vasectomy. I have gone through this and had 4 kids he can handle 1 weekend of discomfort. Sorry to have gone on for so long- just needed to vent and get all of this out. Any response would be greatly appreciated!