Raynbo, I just got back from yoga class it is late and I have just eaten my one meal of the day at 11 pm so I just want to Thank you so much for sharing. (while the amylase, pytalin, trypsion, pepsin and protease and oh yeah lipase kick in.) It feels like you just went through something and really opened up here.
I feel sometimes we do not want to be understood, or we are selective in who we want to understand us. I do not have the ego that says I have the answer for everyone on this board, so I only speak to a few who simply understand my mind or perhaps that take the time to understand. those who do not have understanding or do not have the time I prefer for them to click away or not even click, it is better that way. Those who I speak with know who they are. (especially those of you who are forbidden to communicate with me)
We have the ability to communicate with any one on any level. There are times when we feel that it is a challenge especially if we meet someone who is within the upper limits of our range or spectrum it is good to rise to the challenge as it is to go down a level to bring someone else up. Children are my favorite people to communicate with. I have spoken to my children like the advanced adult souls they are since they were babies and they respect that and come down a notch or two so that they can bring me up to their realm of observation and perspective.
Well you know dogs are always there for you. I just saw my two dogs for the first time in a year. I moved last year and cannot keep my dogs so I left them with my mother with the intent to adopt My youngest Husky Maximus. On the day I was moving he got hit by a car and I did not have the heart to adopt him out so I let my mother observe him for a while and then she did not have the heart to let him go. My oldest Husky Sasha is 15 1/2 and has been with my mother when I moved previously about 10 years ago. My mother said my youngest (maximus) freaked out last week. I had sat in my brother's car and he got whiff of me, jumped in my brothers car and would not get out and even bared his teeth when my brother tried to extract him. SO he just sat in the car for several hours. I have not seen Maximus for over a year until last week and he wrestled with me for 30 minutes before conking out at my feet. He was beside me the whole evening. So I imagine your dog is a good companion. i just have scratches all over my arm from his teeth grabbing my forearms.
I had a thought while walking to yoga class today on Free will. I realized that Free will exists, but it is not God's will. It is our freedom of choice, freedom to stray from our destiny or change parts of it, but nothing is guaranteed. If we follow Destination then we are assured success which is nothing short Of what is deemed for us. For Aye, the clock tolls to tell me not my own will but thy will must be done. I have spent my life writing a book, many chapters have been added the last few years on CZ. Oh yeah it's written in my head and still needs to come out I suppose.
I have learned with my studies and also my work that stories like yours or what people call angels or the voice of God is the innate wisdom from within that yes tells you it is not your time. The only time it ever is is NOW time to be saved. And all is done to get us to that stage where we may receive the visitation and open up to the knock at the door and accept the communion with divine that is a birthright.
Sometimes all that you went through is needed to get you to the point of realization that No_Thing is actually needed. It is not so much an adding on in our lives but a subtraction of what is not needed. Here is wisdom indeed. When I tell people this it is truth INdeed. Only a few see and understand that they do not need to add anything but rather subtract like A sculptor does to a chunk of marble. Oh well....
Wow you have certainly been places and done things. For some odd reason I have been a Tantric and daoist sexual arts master, a yogi many times over, a monk of santana dhamma the 'eternal truth' in many religions, a speech writer for Abraham Lincoln and several other presidents. A slave a slave master many times, I have been a revolutionary and robbed people and stole their homes, I have hurt and oppressed my ex wife many times as she has done to me, and I broke the cycle this lifetime as she was following her script. I have been a very famous doctor, a shaman many times, a thief and a wise little girl in the land Of Havilah who enjoyed dancing through her life. I have many times crippled myself and had infirmities to show others how easy it is to heal using the mind and I am always very strong minded or strong physically constition wise. All of those in previous lifetimes one or more of them currently. I have also had 7986 other lesser and more obsolete lifetimes of course as a beggar, sadhu etc...always moving forward. This whole lifetime has been spent breaking cycles and making up to those I have hurt and robbed everyone I meet is identified before they leave my presence, therefore I know not to attach to any person man or woman, mother father girlfriend , wife or even beautiful precious 'blessed selves' of children. This present life shall be my last in this cycle. Still Now I am No_one and have No_thing, am of NO_Reputation and it shall always be that way. I do channel the dearly departed Dr. Seuss once in a while.
You seem to fit in just fine when you open up any one who wants to can dine at your communion table, perhaps you are selective which is ok and this gets projected, your patience is being honed. There is but a small handful I know of who dine at my banqueting table and it is because we choose to be as ONE. As I stated earlier better to be ONE than to be two divided.