wombat
Hey Hoppy, I failed to mention that I have been going in & out of depressive episodes as well, I broke into tears a couple of times yesterday...and have had other depressive episodes as well. So...you're not alone. I get overwhelmed sometimes, my life is not as I wish, I work way too hard and it seems that there is very little time for rest, and it seems that a lot of my work is just to maintain the status quo of a life not fully realized anyway. One thing I forget about is the value of rest, the value of putting oneself in a position to accept the blessings & beauty of this world. So...I'm going to "work" on that:) (relax, dammit!) :) Getting out into nature always soothes my soul...
Are you unable to walk at all right now? I recall a post of yours not too long ago where you said you were able to take a few steps. You have nerve damage... ?
I am unclear as to your situation...I do know, though, that you should exercise your legs as much as possible, to the best of your ability. What that would involve for you, I don't know. But you need to keep the memory of movement in the muscles of your legs...
I know all this is an emotional cleansing as well...& sometimes, yes, the detox is really *bad*. I feel though, as though I am coming to some realizations on changes that need to be made(on a personal level). Just as with physical health, yeah, it's easier just to let things stay as they are, to not take personal responsibility for the decisions that have led us to this point. But where's the life in that?
It ain't easy, is it? but it's necessary.