I wish I can describe the process, but it has been a long road. Once you reach a point, after studying for a long time, many things come together at once and you get a nice picture. Then, you try to tell others, and nobody believes you, so you find yourself up against people standing in their own way of getting better. Overcoming that barrier is as mch of a challenge as figuring this stuff out in the first place. People are funny animals. Pretty things , aren't they ?