You are so young! Do you have family you could go to and have them help you? I know that if one of my boys was in trouble I would not mind having them back home. You don't sound like a loser. I too have been very sick. I got much better and within days once I stopped the sugar, processed foods, anf fruit, caffeine and my occasional glass of wine. My emotional well being greatly improved along with my cognitive functions. I was so emotionally devasted that I could not answer the phone, pay my bills or talk to people without feeling like I was going to have an anxiety attack. Neither my husband or kids gave me much worries yet my deterioration was coming from within.
As for your girlfriend, I doubt you are ready for a relationship being so young besides having health problems. If you have health insurance you should ask your doc to test you for food allergies and parasites.
Please do not give up and stop worrying about what others think. If they were in your shoes, do you believe they could do any better? If you never suffered with this malady would you be sympathetic to someone like yourself or would you in ignorance judge them?

man, i know how you feel. i am 22 years old and not doing well at all. candida, adrenal burnout, anxiety, Depression caused from physical stuff. i have been there with the thoughts of wanting to die. hang in there. if you need to talk you can email me at gibsgoinpro@yahoo.com

shawn

I went through years of Depression in my past, and I can definately relate. I was on Effexor from 1996 through November 2006, when I had the urge to go off of it while I was taking Difulcan. I haven't been on it since, and I actually believe that my Depression was being caused by yeast overgrowth. I strongly suggest that you seek medical help and have a doctor prescribe an antidepressant for you. This is extremely important because during depression, everything seems so dark and hopeless. An antidepressant will help to support your seratonin levels in your brain that regulate mood, which will help tremendously. Since you live in the U.K., this should be doable since the U.K. has a very good health care system.

Another option is to take up an exercise program. I know that an exercise program can sound overwhelming at first when you are truly depressed, but if you could incorporate some exericise in your daily life, it would help increase endorphins in your brain, which act as an antidepressant. Getting a little sun each day (about 30 minutes) will also improve your mood because the increased vitamin D helps with all metabolic functions. Taking fish oil supplements or eating a lot of salmon is also helpful because of the omega-3 in them, but I have found antidepressants and exercise the most helpful.

It might also help if you do what you can to avoid seeing your old girlfriend. I know how this can be. Coincidentally, I just broke up with my boyfriend of one year, and I'm particularly stressed over this. We are trying to be friends, but twice recently, when I've gone to a restaurant that we both like, I've found out that he had left about 10 minutes before I usually arrive after work (and of course, he knows when I would arrive.) This has cut me like a knife. When it happened again last night, a so-called "friend" quipped, "He must have know you were going to get here any minute."

That's when I decided that because of the Depression that I feel when I learn things like this, I can no longer go to that restaurant or risk running into him. If I let this go on (i.e., putting myself in situations where I might learn things like how he is avoiding me), I feel that ultimately I would continually be dragged down into the abyss of depression. So, it's just best to completely make the break, regardless of how painful it is.

Good luck! Please keep in touch and let us know how you are doing!

You have to live for your inner man before your flesh. This sounds easy but is not at all. Basically if you are living for anything other than God first, you have set yourself up.