Maya,
I have just started sleeping "lightly" instead of falling into refreshing deep sleep. It's like I'm 'half awake' all night, and I wake up exhausted. It's just started about a week ago, and I don't know what I've changed. Usually I'm "hamster wheel" thinking and not sleeping. But this is like waking up all night long. Truth be told, I'm missing being held. I held my husband for 26 years, and I'm a bit lonely, and I have enough to worry about without complicating my life. But I am concoerned.

I'm drinking the ph drink at least twice a day (with molasses-I'm actually developing a taste for it, the organic is pretty good, kelp, active minerals, lemon or vinigar if I don't have lemon). I am staying up too late talking on the phone and not dancing as much, so maybe that is adding. I'm puzzled. I'm exhausted, when I need to be refreshed. Herbs for sleeping seem to 'flip flop' on me--they work backward. If it weren't for my 'religious' beliefs, I'd try coffee, and see if IT works backwards. I haven't done a liver flush for 9 months, but I'm not sure that is a good idea. The day I tried the vitamin IV, I went to bed feeling GREAT, but woke up tired the next morning. It's too expensive. When I was getting the IV, I became incredibly sleepy, afterwards too. Then a few hours later....

I have the cherry drink someone suggested, I have sleepy tea, use cardamon....maybe I'm just eating too late? Or maybe I need a snack? The heater in my room is really drying.....I don't know. I'm stumped. And thought maybe you could help me "RE-MEMBER' something.
thanks,
pj
(i'm going 'away' for the month of February to live in an Aryuvedic community, to learn meditation and center, I hope. I've never done anything like that, and I'm excited/nervous. Himalyan Institute. Borrowing the money to go. Have hopes of getting "quiet" and learning to meditate. But although that kept me awake 'thinking/worry/imagining' one night, that's not what is keeping me awake. But I did want to share that with you as well. )

I have come to consider you a wise and trusted friend, Thanks you. I know :deep down" I am wise as well--just access trouble at this point. Oh, silly me, I just realized something. I"M NOT WRITING....could that have something to do with not sleeping deeply?