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I told him, "I STILL THINK ABOUT MY EX and I had sex with him."."
You actually told him both of those things and expect him to not feel like your whole relationship has been a lie?"
You've been thinking of your ex!!? So you not only are thinking about someone you used to %$@@ when you're %*@$#^% him, you actually told him this and then told him you acted upon it? AND you don't understand how this could be worse than just having sex with some unknown guy? You don't understand how compairing them and having these thoughts about your ex for 3 years and not ending the relationship or making a decision and sticking with it is worse?
You sound very very young or too indecisive to be in a long term relaionship, let alone a true friendship. You have to learn what a friend is before you even think about being this poor man's friend. this poor man is going to be so insecure and hating you. You should not be expecting soemone whom you just treated like a dumpster for 3 years to want to ever talk with you again.