I need help. I am in so much pain lately, it just keeps getting worse. I am on Lomotol and Oxycontin and it just doesn't seen to be helping. I have had a colostomy for over 3 years and uc for about 2 1/2 years, and it doesn't get any better. I have been bleeding into my bag for almost 2 weeks and I am getting very scared, I see the doctor tomorrow to maybe increase the pain medication. I just can't take the pain anymore. My husband did this to me by marital rape through the rectum for about 20 years and he did so much damage that I had to have 14 surgeries, even after some of the surgeries he still did this to me. My daughter and I went to a shelter for abused women and children and now we are in our own place. But I don't know if I can handle this by self. Any suggestions?