It must have been a scary thing for you as a child..
perhaps a little *rethink healing* going back and calming those inner fears,
that have festered there so long (subconciously now still affecting you)
needs to be released.
go back and tell your inner child that everything is OK 8)
Love yourself as you would show that love to a physical child of your own,
if we can't love ourselves (or parts of ourselves, it becomes blocks to
loving others, since we are all one anyhow.
What I took the long way around to say was this:
my own experience:
At a point in my life when I was in a state of physical loss of ability
to get up from a bed most times, my earrings got pushed into the pierced
holes (because of the constant weight of my head on the earring area)
and the skin grew over the top of the diamond earring posts.
I had to break the skin to get the earrings out,
which left very large holes to heal.
and because of my lowered health took a very long time to heal properly.
What I ended up with were large *pearl-like white scars,
that actually look like little round earrings themselves *smile*
but are really overgrown scar tissue.
this was embarrassing to me (why I don't remember now)
I guess cause we just naturally want to *look * perfect,
and We all have a vain side that wants to appear *normal *
by preprogrammed identity processes thru out our lives.
I so much wanted to repierce my ears, (to cover up the scars)
but was unable to do this, cause the tissue is soround and extended a bit.
So I would leave my hair hanging over my ears to hide it,
Nowadays, I love my *natural earrings* (smile )
They look special and beautiful to me and are truly *one of a kind*
I would never dream of making earrings for myself,
unless they were non pierced (hang over the ears kind)
And I am currently in a learning pattern of jewelry making!
So that makes it even funnier, that I make beautiful earrings,
but not for myself,
(tho I do hang pretty pendants around my room and on things, lol)
A long post I know, but the point is.. the manner of perception
will help determine attitude.
So don't worry what others think, if they see it 8)
It is a beautiful part of you , unique as you are.
If you say to one part I shun you , then it affects the harmony
in your body, when all should be embraced completely by you.
Love all you body parts. to do otherwise only hurts yourself.
(well .. lol .. and me too , since we are all parts of each other anyhow.)
Ami Joi Benton
We share a couple of unique ears huh? *smile*
Did you stop to think that it might be connected as well to you embarrassment about your ears? when you had them *pinned back* ? of course a child is vulnerable to
alot of thing others say..but that is when it appeared.. so maybe when you go back,
and soothe the fears of your inner child, you can also love your ears as well?
maybe tell them I am sorry I was a child, etc... sorry I hurt you and altered you
from how you naturally were?
(I can relate, I look a bit like an elf lol!)
my ears stick out from my long hair, but I like my *elfish look*
But young children can be very mean, and I am sure you were subjected to
many childish, thoughtless mean words... but most of us were as well..
to me childhood schooling seems almost an exercise in hatred/separatism
creations of lowered self esteemed confidence social programming,
rather than a place of actual learning and good healthy growth environments.