The other possibility is that you were subconsciously using the illegal drugs to try to self medicate other problems. Did you find that they were somewhat helpful for some of your symptoms? If so, which ones?
I would not be surprised if some of those symptoms include adrenal fatigue, AD(H)D and more.
Have you ever tried support for adrenals, maybe whole adrenal extract--assuming you don't have a history of anxiety or panic attacks?
Have you tried methylation suppoort? It might work better after the adrenal support is on board to some extent. The body needs methylation to make melatonin, a very important brain chemical for sleep.
Methylation is also needed to make the body's natural amphetamine-like brain chemical and adrenaline.
Methylation support has a reputation for reducing some types of depression.
Unfortunately some people will become too amped up on some types of methylation support. It can be wonderful for some people but problematic for some as well.