Posted a hell all of personal information of an affair I had with my ex who was still married, in the process of a divorced because I was angry.
This was after I went to his home and threw all the stuff he had given me including sex toys in front of his wife and I called his job and told them about the divorce and his pot smoking pretending to be his wife.
Because I was angry at him.
One because he initially lied to me about being married.
He told me ha had been divorced for 7 months.
Second because as supportive as I was even trying to get my lawyer friend to help him, he turns around and dumps me anyway.
Then I find out he was messing around with another chick as he did with me.
After he gave me a sob story of how guilty he felt for doing what he did.
I feel guilty for everything I did.
I compromised my morals for staying with him after I found out he wasn't divorced.
I gave in way too much when it was clearly a one way relationship.
Two wrongs don't make a right.
By being spiteful I hurt his wife who did nothing to me.
I hurt him, me, her and had he gotten fired his kids because had he gotten fired how would he provide from them.
I'm so ashamed.
I've never been involved with a married man of any sort.
I'm even more ashamed that I let my anger spin out of control.
I only thought of myself the entire way through.
No apology in the world can undo the damage I did. That's something I have to live with.
I can only learn from this. Never get involved with another married man. Keep a handle on my anger and not go for revenge when somebody has wronged me. The guilt I feel is deserved. I hope one day I can forgive myself. This is destroying me not that I don't deserve it. I am very sorry for everything.
If I could take the entire thing back I would.
I would have said goodbye the moment I found out he was married.
Better yet I would have preferred our paths not to have crossed and spared everyone much chaos and heartache,