grandoptimist
Well day 2 is plodding along. I haven't really been trying to avoid 'temptation' because I think it's an important part of my goal to develop resistance and self discipline. I went about business as usual today, passing my favourite Starbucks where I normally get a frappuccino (sigh)... passing Pret a Manger where some amazing smells were emanating... smelled and watched several people on the Tube eat their yummy after-work snacks or meals. Om nom nom. I can at least enjoy the smell of food even if I'm not eating.
No real problems today except a bit of tiredness and a lot of boredom/mouth watering. I'm not hungry exactly, though I have gotten stomach growls. It's mostly that everywhere I look makes me think of food and then my mouth waters like crazy. I have been daydreaming about food and then have to catch myself and stop because that's not exactly helping anything, haha. I feel pretty proud of myself already and I am very encouraged because this is nowhere near as hard as I had worried it might be. I guess I am just in the correct frame of mind/place in my life to be doing it.
I also notice I am much less stressed. Things that would have sent me into a bad mood before, or things that would have caused my mind to go in circular worry-fits really are okay now. I still feel the urgency in the back of my mind to get things done but it's more of a controlled, calm knowledge than an 'OMG OMG OMG'. I really appreciate that because I am a worrywart normally and I hate it.
Also i have noticed that listening to any melancholy music really affects my mood, so I have had to steer away from that. Probably because food is a source of comfort and when things make me feel sad, it makes the thoughts of eating seem more difficult to deal with.
I am curious to see how this all plays out and how many days I can keep feeling decent. I have been so thirsty, I've just been guzzling water like a fish!
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