curiouslzrd
Well everyone, it is time for me to admit it......things are getting a lot harder psychologically. This morning was by far the worst. Let me tell you what happened....
I woke up this morning and absolutely could not stop thinking about chili cheese fries. there was a moment that I swear I smelled it! I don't know what it was, but I kept visiting the delivery pizza website and clicking on it over and over again. The money was literally burning a hole in my pocket and I almost pressed the "deliver" button several times. I picked up my bottle of lemon sparkling water, took a few sips, and the mental cravings subsided. I then took a walk outside and when I returned to take a shower, there was only cold water!! To top things off, the internet connection at my house died as well. This is the reason I am writing this so early.
Once I took the shower I was hit with yet another wave of cravings. This time it was for chicken tenders and honey mustard sauce. My friend then emailed me and wanted to go out for chicken parm and chili. I swear on my life, I was EXTREMELY close to cracking and destroying the fast. What kept me going was in fact the lemon sparkling water. To be honest, without it I would have ordered the chili cheese fries and gone out for chicken parm and chili afterwards.
I would definetly like to thank everyone for thier support in this endevour. I came to the realization this morning that I really do not respect food. Instead I have spent years going overboard and snacking. I made a promise to myself. After this fast is over, I am going to adopt an intermittent fasting and exercise regimen to my lifestyle. I am also going to respect myself more as well as food.
If not for all of your support, there is absolutely no doubt in my mind that I would not have made it past day 5.
Stay tuned and keep following. Thanks!!
Cheers,
D