Okay, well I realize that it IS a good idea (GREAT IDEA, thank you Uny!) for me to post every day about what's going on, my progress, etc. If anything, I'll feel less alone, and like I'm actually checking in with someone (all of you). I realize how important it is to be accountable, especially when asking for help.
I went out today- I hadn't been out all week, since I hadn't been well. I did my small errands and went in for my colonic. It was a WONDERFUL experience! I had been to that clinic before, a few times in the past, and the staff are absolutely amazing. This is the first time that I was given a treatment by the owner, Lucie. She's been doing this for 18 years, and her bedside manner is impeccable. Right away, we clicked, and my session in total lasted almost 3 hours! It was like I was reconnecting with an old friend- we talked about health, the importance of cleansing, diet etc...and I talked a lot about my life and experiences during the treatment itself- and it was in a positive way, I just felt so good being in this lady's energy, and she brought out the best in me. Everything flowed so well and smoothly- and as has happened in the past, I was told that my colon responds well to colonics. It does, which is hilarious to me, since I have such difficulty evacuating anything on my own! I chalk it up to my gut still being so sensitive, and possibly damaged from years of allergies- plus my issues with food and irregular eating habits and also living in a stressful environment. I just have such a hard time 'letting go'.
I asked if anything 'unusual' came out, but she said no. My stools were just a bit hard in the beginning, but that cleared out quickly. She did not see much, if any ,yeast- and no parasites
either. I told her about the cleansing I'd already done, and the CE's- and she was very happy to hear that. She thinks that they have been doing me a lot of good:) We both agree that cleansing is the way to go, to restore my health- and it's very possible that I still have layers of things that will come out once I am really solid with my program, whatever that will be. So, in all, it was an AMAZING experience:) One thing she did recommend is that I take probiotics. She carries this brand- its apparently very good and potent:
I didn't buy it, because I wanted to check in with Uny first. Uny, I have not yet made the milk kefir, though I just bought some organic milk two days ago (it's not raw, and I am not sure I can get that in Montreal). My concern is possibly having sinus/infection issues with the dairy. I also haven't made the water kefir in a while, but could start on that again. She did mention that although these food sources of probiotics are very useful, this one that is encapsulated contains a specific human strain that is very valuable for repairing a compromised gut (and god knows, my gut is very much in need of help!) Uny, what do you think? Can I get by with kefir (milk or water) or should I invest in this probiotic and see?
I was on liquids most of today, and had almost 3 litres of apple juice before, and after the colonic. I have noticed quite a bit of nausea today and brain fog, coming in waves-as things are still moving around in my gut- I know my body is still releasing stuff. I plan on doing another Coffee-Enema
tomorrow to see if anything new comes out! I did three cloves of garlic/some cayenne tonight with some steamed veggies that I made into soup, and before that I had a pineapple.
I am feeling lighter, more optimistic and hopeful. I do have a lot of emotional stuff I need help with though. I feel the need to talk with my family, because this is the most chronic issue I have- not being able to communicate properly with them. I'm always afraid that we will start a fight, or that things will get bad- but I know that they too, feel this way- and they go on the defensive very easily as well. It's all about silly self-protective learned behaviors that are toxic and useless, I tell ya!
Also, I do need to figure out how to find a place to live, so I can make greater strides in my health. I will try not to stress too much about it, and take a few days to really sort my head out. I will also work on what you have asked for me to do, Uny- the lists and such. I think this will be a very good thing, indeed:)
Thank you so much,