Thanks to each of you for the encour... 
The Pirate Shay
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Time does not permit me to thank each of you separately who have encouraged me along the way. I think of you often and remember the kind words that you each of you have given me.
It has been a rugged journey for me. 23 days of water fasting, only to break it for several days of intense binging. The mental trips that I have played on myself have not been good, but, as in any journey, not all roads are paved with gold.... far from it in this case.
Regardless, I have started again. I ate and ate, thinking about all the foods that I "lusted" over during those 23 days. I woke up with the WORST case of acid reflex and it has continued throughout this day. Enough that I had to call in sick. This has been the absolute worst case that I have ever experienced.... never really had it before, but this is just horrible!! I must admit so much worse than going without food.
That isn't my intent for writing today. My real reason was to thank each of you who have given me kind words and thoughts. I do think of you often throughout the day. I hold down two jobs, so its hard for me to write, personally to each of you. Please know that I appreciate you so very much... (you know who you are.)
Day One.. back on the wagon.. not because I really want to, but, the thought of food makes me sick and my throat and esophagus are just raw from the abuse that I caused myself. No amount of taste and consumption is worth what I am going through now.
During this next fast, I MUST "lust" after fresh fruits and vegetables or this addiction will never go away.
I remain,
Shay ps..again, my heartfelt "THANKS" to each of you.
- Re: Thanks to each of you for the en... montecristo5216
14 y
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MoreThis is a reply to # 1,735,991Don't be so harsh on yourself! Fasting is not only fasting per se. It entails a deeper change in all aspects of one's life.
Look at the experience you already got. You already proved to yourself that fasting for those many days is very possible, as opposed to what the official propaganda says, that Fasting for so many days is not possible and even dangerous. You now know better.
Praise yourself for your accomplishments. Now you also know that the refeeding period is may be more difficult than fasting itself. Cause the goal is not fasting just to fast, the real goal is to change the living and eating habits that make us ill, and fasting is just a tool to do that- a very important tool, we know. It will put a hold to all those diseases we are bringing to our lives with our old bad habits.
You are learning, and learning well, the hard way- many would say.
Just pat yourself on your shoulder and keep going ;.)
- Re: Thanks to each of you for the en... malah
14 y
1,170
This is a reply to # 1,735,991Hi Shay!
It is all true, that re-feeding usually feels like going back to the world of sin.
I do not make the mistakes i was making after the first fasts, but i still make mistakes. I do not make so many mistakes on day one of every re-feeding any more, but i still make them, more so on days 13-20 now.
So there is progress! But it is slow with me. The only thing i dont do, i do not blame myself, and i allow myself to eat what i like, making an impartial note. Very slowly what i eat moves towards vegetables and fruit, but i make sure i always enjoy my food, and possibly everything else.
If you cannot be good, be careful, if you cannot be careful, make the note of the date.
That is called the irreversible change of lifestyle, innit?
Hope this can help a bit.
- Re: Thanks to each of you for the en... montecristo5216
14 y
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