mstoriva
Sorry I haven't been on in a few days, got a lot going on here. I was going to start either today or tomorrow with my fast again, but I am really thinking about waiting until next week because my period is due this week and I always get rid of my excess water weight during or right after it. I kind of don't want to fast for the week and it only be a reduction of water weight I would have gotten rid of without fasting. Plus sometimes fasting can make you not get a period, I just want to make sure I get mine lol.
Then after I decided I am going to wait, I check my email and this is what my horoscope says:
Monday, Aug 9th, 2010 -- Pay careful attention to your physical body now, for the New Moon falls in your 6th House of Health and Habits. The smallest details of your daily routine can be important enough to make you feel better or worse over extended periods of time. Pick something that you can do every day, such as making an improvement to your diet or exercise program, to enhance your total well-being
Now sometimes these things are really bogus, but this one seems very true to me. Lately I have been feeling that trying to lose weight is pointless no matter what I do I always end up looking fat. I seriously don't look different at all. My stomach still sticks out farther than my boobs (without a bar on that is). I just don't know what I want to do now. I need to lose this weight because I am planning on having the access skin from my stomach removed some time next year. I am saving up for it and I know they advise to lose the weight first, mind you my stomach probably has at least 30 lbs of fat that will be sucked out when I do that, but still. I just don't know. I feel like crap. Part of me says, do it now just do this mon-fri fasting for at least a month and then maintain that. I feel like it won't work. My last fast was horrible, and the one before was the worst because I ended up gaining so much weight back so quickly. I am being really good about counting my calories, and watching what I eat, but no matter what I have gained 11 lbs back and seem to be stuck there. I feel miserable :(