i'm one for plans and phases, too ,and i like it
the best advice i can give though is to keep sharing/socializing your current state, especially your secret fears/reservations about your plans/protocols.
works for me, recently. I shared about my fears about my diet and my fears about my method of geting perme\anently off triggering foods (by staging final eating sessions of them ugh . terrifying) and i am feeling a lot more in control in a positive way
I am really committed to my food sobriety which is to eat ONLY bitter tasting green /chlorophyll-developed, raw living (i.e. sprouted) nonstarchy foods i.e. a sprout diet . AND more importantly NEVER to eat unless I am absolutely OK with eating in every way, physcially , mentally, emotionally, spiritually -- EVEN IF i can justify eating in various ways for instance "I havent eaten the whole day" etc. we'll see if I can stay out of the sprouts tonight but at least they are not tempting.
Right now I just feel like sh*t because i am not detoxed from my Final Triggering Food Session (not even successful/satisfying, as I could not locate My One Perticular Crucial Desired Triggering Food, so I have to do over in 1 month or so, ugh I mean enticing but terrifying; but I AM TRULY ACTUALLY EXCITED ABOUT living food-sober as I describe above. I have never been able to commit before to sprouts-only diet or to "pushing away the food" if it is , even slightly, not OK with me to eat)
.. so I am not detoxed which means my hunger has not come back which means I have to endure life without eating. It's 6:20 pm and I have not eaten since 4 a.m. and I have to realize this is not really a long time and certainly not as long as my body NEEDS , for a rest. I just want to eat.Because I am miserable emotionally. I have to get excited about and get gratification from the idea of actually adhering to my rules for Real Food-Sobriety, which call for me NOT to eat until it is REALLY OK with my body.
So I have a bit of time to wait before eating. I may have to wait until tomorrow morning. I need to say I can not stand the thought of this. I need to say I cannot stand , even though it is a question of my HEALTH, the thought of just going home after my AA meeting and going to BED, and not eaating anything. But I have to! This is what sobriety is! This is what I have to do. I have to WAIT. I will be rewarded by knowing that I have made another day of real Sobriety. Since my Final Trigger Session (ended Sunday night 11:30 pm) I have: First fasted 29 hours (until 4 am today); then, feeling true ability to tolerate food and feelings of hunger (toxic, at this stage of my health, but Ok to eat on them , since I knew I would not get sick if I ate & I really could tolerate food) eaten some sprouts (330 calories' worth and i stopped when my body said to); then endured all day today with no food fix. So...I have been Perfectly Sober for 2 days. I just have to keep this up. I am frustrated since I would do well to just determine to begin a fast right now but there is NO WAY... i just feel so frustrated and deprived... I conjecture that maybe what has to happen is: I have to detox a bit and then have a "Satisfying" eating experience with sprouts and THEN think about determining to fast. I hate this need I have for "Satisfaction" but see no alternative. best to you.
best regards.