I've been reading through the forum, but it's been a stressful week. So much sadness with the death's of young people. The memorial service for my son's classmate is today. They determined that his death was caused by internal bleeding, caused by overuse of presc. pain killers, and alcohol. A funeral was held yesterday for the step-son of one of my classmates, also in his early 20's- cause of death was alcohol- car wreck. Already an alcoholic at the age of 22 years old.

Then- I found out that the group of youth that were on the tour boat that got ran over, was a group of kids and leaders from Hungary- from the organization my daughter worked for. She knows leaders and kids that were on the boat. She'll be attending the funerals in Hungary.

Coming from a long line of alcoholics on both sides of my family, I really hate alcohol and how it destroys people's lives. I also know that much of why they turn to addictive substances, is to self-medicate and cover pains- whether physical, emotional, or mental.. which only adds to the vicious cycle.

The young man who's service we are attending today, injured his shoulder, and had more than one surgeries for it- and most likely didn't take care of it. That was the physical pain. However, because of his father committing suicide a few years back, he most likely had been dealing with alot of emotional and mental pain for some time too.

I know it's off topic from Rife, but we often times think of the physical stuff we're dealing with, but stress sure doesn't help our health either.

On top of it all..dad's cataract surgery was also this week. After mom's death, as the only daughter- care for his health stuff is on my shoulders. I don't mind. You guys know how tiring it is to take care of your own stuff though- extra stuff can be really tiring.

Thank goodness I'm not a lawyer, or financial advisor, or work in the medical world like people I know here have to do.

I don't know how you working people do it- seriously. Thank goodness I'm "just" a housewife. :) Tired. My yard work and gardens..aren't getting taken care of, but I think one of the worst things I did before knowing how much I really had going on with my health, was push myself when I now know I shouldn't have. Expectations we place on ourselves to keep up with the rest of the world. Some things we can't help, and have to push on. Like having twin babies with no relatives around to help me- even though it was years back, it took a toll. I had no idea then, how much I had going on with my health- Lyme especially. But... they were able to put me on anti-depressants to "help" :(