Aw honey I'm sorry to hear about all this! My heart goes out to you. I know how hard you've been trying to heal and in a situation like you've described that takes a lot of gumption, you've shown tremendous strength to hang on this long.
I admire you for still looking for the good in life and yes, you are a beautiful, strong, talented woman who deserves to have the desires of your heart!
I'm sorry I can't give you any advice to help you in this situation ;( I sure do wish we had some kind of a retreat/camp where we could all gather to get through our healing/cleansing with all the eye to eye support we need to get through it! What a blessing that would be!
Don't you give up girlfriend! The universe is NOT going to let you down, just when you think things are over is when we sometimes get the answer to our problems.
I'm sending you vibes of strength and endurance but most of all LOVE!
Thank you so much for all your love and encouragement:) You and Uny have become sort of like moms for me, in the sense that I look up to you and take your wisdom to heart. I also think you are both strong and courageous women and I want to be that way too, for myself and for my siblings. Thank you so much, I'm truly honored! I know that as you grow you're only gonna get stronger and more powerful as you gain that most important mileage and you are without a doubt already courageous because in spite of all you've been through you haven't given up! ;) ;)
I really hope that everyone understands that the last thing I want from this post is attention- I know that people are here to heal and a lot are in sensitive states as well. I'm sure that all of us here completely understand, we all have times when we just need a giant hug to know that we are loved and supported. Ultimately, I really do just need to fix this situation. Oh boy, I used the word 'fix' again! lol.
It's funny because I've inundated myself with so much positivity these last few months- every time I felt a symptom, every time I felt pain- every time someone made a snide remark or put me down- I mustered the strength to keep going regardless. I've been listening to lectures by Caroline Myss and Tony Robbins, and the videos of Dr.Christopher and Dr. Schulze, to keep me on track. It may not show to the outside world, but I am tougher now than I've ever been, in many ways. That's the way to go, keep yourself positive any way you can but don't beat yourself up when you have a bad day, and yes as you heal your are going to get much tougher. Don't worry what those around you think or say, what matters is that you're doing what you know you've gotta do to heal.
My sister told me two days ago that I look better. YAY! She said that my arms have filled out a bit, that my face has cleared up and that I seemed healthier. She's right! That was a HUGE confirmation for me that despite how I feel a lot, that I AM making progress:) Good for your sister! Sometimes we need someone to point the positive things out to us that we don't notice because we think we should be further along than we are. Even baby steps are giant steps in healing!
One tip to LF's (liver flushers): Take 2-3 days during an LF to really prepare yourself, go through and come down from the experience. The experience for me has been time and time again, that SO many emotions and feelings are stirred up (coincidentally yesterday was the day after a flush for me) and I KNEW that I should have just kept to myself until I was through. All of the feelings I had been bottling up for so long came to the surface- and I asked for love where I should not have:( This is my situation, granted, and EVERYONE should be able to ask for love, help, support etc. WHENEVER they need it ABSOLUTELY! (in a saner world:) So...yes, take a few days to chill, ok? It can be intense;) Yep, liver work really works on healing emotions too!
I love you Willow! I love you too Teresa and I'm wrapping my arms around you tight!
Blessings of strength and peace,
Oh Teresa, you are a beautiful person and I so wish I could give you a huge (but not too painful) HUG right now... I"m so sorry you're going through this.... Wish I'd seen your post yesterday.
Please tell us how you're doing today.
So many people here on the forum care for you deeply.
I'm praying that you will find the solace, warmth, encouragment, and most of all the healing you need.
Your sister in healing,